1st april is the day i joked with myself. i finally saw you again in BP but i'm sorry, i just can't endure the ache. oh i think you should know . that's why i have to leave. you would never imagine how mixed my emotions are everytime you say something emotional. having contradicting thoughts is my worst pandemonium. the conflict between hope and fact. why can't you be more open and obvious? this forbiden fruit thing is becoming too draggy i guess once bitten, twice shy is an understatement. sometimes we never want to try certain things again. someone need to take the initiative. when will you do ?